I found out about your existence today.  At first I did not know how to react.  I sat in a bathtub full of bubbles and couldn’t move, I called a friend who came over and without even asking played my favorite song on repeat.  I called my wife who knew exactly what to do.  We jumped in her car and she picked a few mood fitting songs for me to listen to…one made me cry, the other made me think, the last made me laugh.  As we approached the little white building on the left side of the street my heart sank into my stomach…i almost forgot how to walk.  I mustered up the strength to open the door and go right inside.  There was no wait, a sweet blonde lady led me back to a room with a comfortable sofa with tissues on the arm rest, almost as if she’d prepared for me to come.  I asked her for a test and when i came back there was a little pin waiting for me on the couch pillow…tiny little feet.  i knew you existed then.

youre hardly any bigger than a seed and i already love you, more than i ever thought i had the capacity to love anyone.  and that love for you has helped me love myself.  i changed a lot in 48 hours, i changed a lot in a matter of moments…and i hope that for the rest of your life you know that i am always going to be here to love you. and if you only have one person to count on that is enough. 

life may be hard at first, the road may be long and curvy and at times dark and scary, but i will do everything within my power to love and care for myself enough to love and care for you.

i may be alone and i may be young, but i promise to give you the most i can give you, and if someone decides to step up and be a part of your wonderful life i can only hope you find the good in him that i saw…