I sat at the stop light for what felt like ten minutes…cars passing by me in all directions but I was rendered immobile. I glanced at the clock and then to my left, the blond in the car next to me was belting out the lyrics to Miley cyrus’ new hit while her boyfriend hid his head in shame…I wanted to know what the rest of the world was doing the moment I fell apart, the moment my heart was breaking.

There was an old man walking his dog, a woman walking behind him with a stroller and three blue birds perched on a tree branch. Spring was alive all around me…there was happiness out there for some people.

It was 3:23 pm and the rest of the world was smiling…I wondered then what they had been doing this morning at 10:34. Were they just as happy when the doctor was telling me I had three weeks to live? What about at 12:07 when she left me because she found it “unfair” to be in love with someone who was going to die… All at once I hated everyone around me, and then I realized…that doctor will go on to deliver bad news, families will continue to eat meals together at their dinner table and factories will be constant contributors of pollution to society…children would smile, women would cry…and life would go on just fine with me. The blond looked over at me to smile as a car behind me honked…the light was finally green and before I could glance right again to return the favor she was gone.

Just like me.